I'm Aliiiiiive

Hello to all. Yeah I'm back finally. I haven't blogged a lot because I've been trying to get the feel of my new life and schedule. Between college, work, homework, mariachi, and helping the band because the director is clueless, its been a hassle. But noe I'm back, more relaxed, less jumpy and ready to write. I've had so many ideas for a blog post but no time to write it. Its been hard to find time for everything. For example: I've had Percy Jackson's last series book on my desk for 2 WEEKS AND HAVEN'T TOUCHED IT BECAUSE OF HOMEWORK. Jeez the struggle is real. I know if I read the book I won't want to do anything else until I finish it tears and all. I'm kinda.scared honestly too. The fangirl in me will cry too much i know it. Funny thing thay books make me cry not movies. Movies aren't as connecting as books I suppose.

You are beautiful. I saw this little message on my second week ofcollege and it kinda made my day. If you were having a shitty day or nervous of a presentation, a little something like that could defenatly make someone smile. Since i found this in the girls bathroom it could also make a person change their mind. 5 out of 15 of adult woman have symptoms of Bulimia. You never know if one of those 5 may walk into that stall.

Today my history teacher, which is off his rocker completely, congratulated me in being one of the two girls who got A's on his quiz. Honestly his class is easier than my high school AP US History. Ms. Quezada definitely kicked our asses in that class presuring us and preparing us for college. I think she succeed.

Taking the bus kinda sucks and kinda is cool. It sucks because i have to pay but rules because I only pay for what one tank of gas would cost me. So I mean I'll probably do a whole other post on the bus and it's many inhabitants. I need my licence already.

So that is me for now. Oh! I got a new phone that is connected to a network and everything and it is AMAZING. I love it so much. It makes life so much easier. Like blogging muaha. Anyways, I hope you all have a great day and complement someone today. Trust me, it will make their day.
¤ Natalie

x

Mysterious Mondays: 9/15/14

Good hello guys. I have come today to, as it's become a habit lately, to geek out. When my mother convinced my father to pay Netflix she didn't know what she was creating. Now my siblings and I live with our eyes glued on the TV. My mom has seriously just started to realize that when I become interested in something I become obsessed. *cough* anime, book series, Tumblr, TV shows, movies, anything illuminated by the sun *cough* This time it's a fairly old show that broadcast in 2005. 

I have been completely hooked on Supernatural. 

Supernatural aired September 13, 2005 on The WB, so I'm literally 10 years late on realizing how amazing this show is. The show is basically about two brothers, Sam and Dean Winchester, who hunt demons, monsters, ghosts, and any other supernatural beings in the world. (duh) I had originally heard about this show when it actually aired but I was 9 then so I had better things to do like practice my flute and go make myself look like a potato while playing house in my back yard. 

I always had an interest in the show as I got older but I never willed myself to watch it. Like I said, I had better things to do. Now however, the first summer where I literally had almost nothing to do, I had enough time and boredom to watch. Best decision ever. 

I'm only on Season 3 so it's been really difficult not to go on Tumblr and Google to look up pictures because there are spoilers EVERYWHERE. Especially now that Season 9 is coming out. Here I am on Season 3. I'm actually pretty excited that I need 6 more seasons because that means I'm not going to be left heartbroken mid season. 

I really enjoy this show because how how much of a bond Sam and Dean have. Both brothers are willing to trade in anything, including their soul, and die for one another because that is how much they love each other. I really like this factor of the show because the brothers are faced daily with evil and always have that chance of death hanging over their head. I mean yeah it's a life of adventure but at what risk? The boys that this bond because of their unnatural upbringing. I mean, if your mother was killed by a demon and you father had dedicated his life to hunting the demon who killed his wife, you'd probably bond to the only other person who's going through the same thing too. 

Another aspect that I really enjoy about the show is that all the demons and monsters they face are actually true in some culture or folklore. The Brothers Grimm stories, Genies, Werewolves, Vampires, Ghosts, Spirits, you name it. It's really interesting how the show brings light and represents these monsters. I mean for example, lets take the very hated and misjudged Twilight. Vampires in Twilight are sparkly, super fast and strong. Vampires in Supernatural usually are party animals that drink liquor and kidnap people, for you know, lunch. Werewolves in Twilight change when they get angry or vampires are around. Werewolves in Supernatural change when it's the full moon and go insane. Different representation, same lore. 

I will now continue to geek out until I finish Supernatural. Because I mean, I don't start school next week or anything. Psssh no. Thank you for reading and I hope you have a nice day. 

-Natalie xx 

Mysterious Mondays 8/25/14

What's up guys? I was browsing the interwebs and found this fantastic singer on YouTube. Please take a listen and go like her video because HOT DAMN DAT VOICE. Honestly this is making me want to go grab my acoustic and sing too. I probably should but you know parents, once you show an interest in something they start freaking out and bragging about it to their friends and then make you do something your not comfortable with. Wait no? Just me? Awesome. 

Being in a mariachi helped me learn guitar but no matter how hard I try I can not bar the strings. Its so frustrating because I will literally try until I can't feel my fingers. Either my fingers are too weak or my fingers are to weak. Damn fingers. You will not get the best of me. I will not give up.

I honestly think I'm not that bad of a singer I just don't like rejection. Yeah I know, weakling right? I don't even get stage fright it's just the comments people make that make me freak out, good or bad. It's like "Oh crap they were actually paying attention??" I sometimes believe I am invisible. I think I'm missing a marble from the jar in my head. It must be invisible. 

I'm going to go fight with my guitar guys. Thank you for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Natalie

Enjoy Every Moment of Life

It's so surreal how we take everything for granted. You can not say individually that you don't because everyone does. Yesterday and today my family and I have been watching old home videos from Thanksgiving. Like we're talking years 2005/2006. This is the time when my brother of 9 was 1 year old and I was 10 years old. My family is together on thanksgiving and dancing their asses off in my back yard. We are all crazy young, dancing to old school Mexican music, and of course, happily drunk. What makes this so special is the fact that my family is at my house. See, one of my uncles live up north by San Francisco in a city called Stockton. That is at least 6-7 hours away from where I live. They used to drive every year down to my house to celibate thanksgiving and my uncle's birthday, which is on the same day. My other uncle, who is also my godfather, who lives much closer comes too with his family. What shocked me was that second cousins that we don't talk to at all are also in this particular video we watched and it seems impossible because we have completely no contact at all with them now. 

That was the past. Today, my uncles and my dad, their brothers mind you, have created some family feud that completely destroyed that family we used to be. Worst is that this feud is about money. Money. If the world wasn't economically run then maybe this wouldn't have happened. But I'm not here to blame the world. I here to ravish on the past and to tell myself to enjoy every single moment of my life whether it be waiting in line to going to church. Every moment is precious. Family is worth more than money isn't it? 

Another aspect of my life that has made me think of this was that life is so fragile and can be gone in an instant. Many of my dad's family friends have passed away recently and has made me think about everything in my world and how I would feel if they passed away. In this past week I know of 3 people personally who have pasted away. Three. One of these people is the father of one of my past dancer friends who had cancer. Her little girl, who grew up with no father, was extremely attached to him and now doesn't even comprehend that he's gone. All she knows is that she misses him and asks when he's coming back. It makes my heart heavy just to think of this poor little girl. If this were to happen to me i know I wouldn't be l aright. I mourn for their family who is suffering right now and hope everything gets better in their life.

For my sake, I am going to list memories of my past that have changed dramatically through out the years:

1. My grandpa house, house I grew up in and lived, is now under new ownership. I knew every nook and cranny in that house and can not even visit it anymore. They even tore down my tree house.

2. My grandparents got divorced. My grandma hardly ever visits now.

3. My other set of grandparents have passed away. I now will never have a chance to see or speak to them ever again. Last time I saw them I was 9. 

4. After seeing my cousins and I dancing and getting along so well, I realized that I can't even contact them because they have blocked me from every social network they have. 

5. I have stopped dancing which I really need to start again soon.
6. My high school band director has accepted another job position and will be resigning. I know I never really talked to him very often but I will miss him tremendously. He is by far one the best teachers I have ever had.  

Enjoy your life and cherish every minute of it. You'll never know when it will be taken away.

-Natalie

Mysterious Mondays: Pixlr Editor 8/11/14

Gaaahh! I am so behind on writing all my blog posts!! That's what studying does for ya. I could seriously write about a million things right now. Here are some: 

1. Band Camp has started

2. My summer class is ending this week

3. One of my old dance friends got engaged and shes only 19!

4. I need to study for my final!

5. I'm cutting and DIYing my old clothes

6. I saw Step Up All In and Planes in the theaters

Yeah that's my list of what I need to write about. I want to make myself write all the posts this week so I'd have one post every day but I have my final! I don't know yet if I'll actually complete it all. Its a possibility. Let's leave it at that. 

So since this is still a Mysterious Monday post, let me rave to the internet about the internet! Whoo Hoo! I have been messing around with Pixlr because I've been trying to make my own personalized background for my blog. It's not that easy people let me tell you. So many numbers involved 0~0 There must only be pictures not numbers! Anyways I was messing around it Pixlr and ended up finding how cool the website actually was. I have always wanted to dye my head and get tattoo since I was a little girl and this website allowed me to see what I would actually look like. 

I really REALLY like it. Hopefully ( slim chance ) my parents like it too. But what parent likes to see their child like this? Not mine that's whose. One day Natt, one day. 

I really recommend Pixlr to anybody who likes to edit pictures because it is completely free unlike Photoshop and other editing programs. 

That's all for today lovely people. I need to study! 

Wait I lied hehe. I had an idea of another little segment I could start on my blog. It's kinda like a dream journal but on the internet (duh) and it would be in a video instead of writing. It could be called "Natalie's Narratives" or something of that sort. What do you guys think? Wanna see me in pj's and crazy 80's morning hair? I'd give you a great laugh I guarantee it. 

-Natalie xoxo

Musical Mondays

Hello all! Good Morning and welcome to the new segment of my blog: Musical Mondays. Basically I'm show casing some of my favorite music of the week whether it be a band or just songs from my playlist at home. Music is important to me because it can get you pumped for the day, calm you down in times of distress, cheer you up, or just express what you can't seem to in words.

Today I'm going to be raving about one of my favorite bands, who I didn't know they were my favorite band until recently, The Strokes. I absolutely love them and their style of music. I found out their music makes me extremely happy and makes my mood from terrible to ecstatic and ready to conquer the day. They really help me put a gloomy ugly day to a cheerful one.

Here are some of my favorite songs by them:

This last song "Undercover of Darkness" has a special meaning to me because this is what got me through emotionally when my grandpa died. I had found out at school and thankfully Ben was with me because I kinda was in shock and then broke down completely. It was a huge shock. I had this song on repeat the whole day. Even today I have a hard time listening to it because it reminds me so much of my grandpa. Because of the upbeat beat I imagine him walking into the light and be sprinting behind him saying "Don't go that way" and him saying "I'll wait for you" like in the lyrics. I didn't know him that well but I know for a fact we would have gotten along so well. Distance sucks. 

That's all for today's Musical Monday. Thanks for sticking around and listening to my little story. I hope you all have a nice day of summer. 

-Natalie   x

Monday Quotes 7/7/14

“Fantasy is hardly an escape from reality. It's a way of understanding it” - Lloyd Alexander.

This quote really impacts me because there was a time in my life where books were and still are a huge part of my life. Books taught me how to love, how to respect, how to find the real me under all the armor put up to defend myself from the world. Falling in deep (deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep) love with characters kept me sane when I thought I was going insane. In a book there is knowlege passed on from billions of years ago that is still alive today. Life lessons, consequences, reactions, and events that changed the world forever. Books allow people to experience many lives in one lifetime. Books are amazing. I think I say this too much. Not sorry.

“A man's mind is stretched by a new idea or sensation, and never shrinks back to its former dimensions” - Oliver Wendell Holmes.

When I read this, the first thought that popped into my head was "This should be posted in every teacher's classroom." The human brain is a wonderful organ that basically is what we call "us". Now I know people argue that we are more than our body parts and such but hey, I'm going to be a scientist so for now I go by the scientific point of view. The fact that when a person learns or has at least one new idea everyday is remarkable because those ideas will eventually build up and expand the way that person thinks forever. Like I said, the human brain is kinda awesome.

“It may be unfair, but what happens in a few days, sometimes even a single day, can change the course of a whole lifetime...” - Khaled.

This quote totally sounds like a movie plot. But I think that's why I enjoyed it. If you think about it, it's kinda true. And t fits every movie ever made. The first moive I thought of was "Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights." Why? Because it is my favorite movie ever. I have a soft spot for dancing movies. I literally start twitching on the couch because I want to get up and dance to the movie. What a noob huh. Anyways, for those who havn't seen it, the american girl movies to Cuba because of her father's work. She meets a guy her age who is a fantastic Cuban dancer and asks him to join andancing competition with her. Yada yada yada they fall in love and what not. Point is, a few days in Cuba and her life is magically changed by this guy in the span of a few days. This was the nice lovey dovey upbeat version of the quote. Of course you can also think of "Lone Survivor" which is a more realistic way to think of the meaning of the quote. Oh how I hate army movies. Gives me chills.

“When it was dark, you always carried the sun in your hand for me” - Sean O'Casey.

This totally reminded me of "Twilight" (Please don't eat me. I actually liked it for some time >.<) Jacob was the sun for Bella when Edward left. On a personal level, that was what Ben was for me. My life was drab and gray and boring before I met Ben. I did everything I was told, I got good grades, I did what I knew my parents wanted me to do even if they didn't say so, I was the number one good girl who had no fun and didn't really know what making my own decitions was. I was sad. I was bored with my life. I was stuck. And then comes Ben with his huge smile and bad bratt attitude. He made me really laugh for the first time is months. He was my sun.

-Natalie 

HELP! A Greedy Ass Raccoon is Taking Over My Life!

My life has been taken over. By this these people. 

 Since this summer has been semi filled with stay home days I have undusted my Nintendo DS and started to relive my childhood. You know, after I charged it. Leave it to me leave my DS uncharged.

After (finally) searching all the cheats and ways to quickly obtain money in Animal Crossing (which is basically the point) I learned lots of new little secrets I didn't know about. Like if you bury a shovel, the next day it becomes a golden shovel which if you plant money with it YOU GROW MONEY. What the hell man! I could have already payed off my mortgage if I knew about this!!! Stupid raccoon, y u charge so much. Grrr Catching fish and insects only do so much man! This game takes dedication. I wish I could pay New Leaf but I'm in the "Doesn't have a 3DS corner" so mourn for me.

 Honestly my favorite part is dressing up my character. All the little clothes and are so cute! Thankfully I got a nice face in the beginning of the game or is literally start the whole game over. My face would probably annoy me to the point of madness. Little OCD of you couldn't tell. 

Anyways here are some pictures of my now discharged life from school (or prison since there are QUITE a bit of relations in them both)

 

Help a raccoon is controlling my life,

-Natalie 

Spring Break and New Blog

Whats up guys! I know its been a very long time since I've written ( bad Natalie). Hey! Life is difficult for a high school senior. Final tests, college acceptances, money, begging for prom, band practice, friends, just everything. I'm trying to enjoy this though because I literally have less than two months left in my high school career. TWO MONTHS. Holy crap. I just a bit scared for what the change is going to bring. Hopefully my drivers licence and a bit more freedom.

News Update! Recently I've written another blog which is the place where I write about my thoughts and my opinions on ideas that randomly may pop into my head where this blog is to write down all of my activities and events in my life. My other blog is called Natalie's Neverland. I will most likely write on both blogs and continue to graph my life at one step at a time. 

Next on the news update: Spring Break! I am so excited to finally be on spring break. I usually can not tell when I am stressed but after whatever is stressing me is gone, I feel so relieved. That is how I feel. I have to write a 11 page essay with three of my friends for a class that shouldn't be giving us homework in the first place and my goodness it is kicking my butt. Then I have to pay all my college fees and ask for permission for prom and all that money and gosh damn it I need a job. I've also been reliving a bit of my obsession with Twilight lately. No I am not a to die Twihard or nothing but I do love the book not because the particularly because the story line but because the those books were part of my growing up and make me relive those moments. Without a doubt though, I do very much love Jacob Black, the fictional character, not the actor. Though the actor is pretty nice to look, I prefer the fictional character much more. 

So yeah guys. That's my life as of today, April 18th. If it wouldn't be much trouble go check out my other blog and see if it fits your fancy. 

-Natt

The Little Things About My Grandma

I've been thinking about my family a lot recently but the one person who always stays in my mind is my grandma. While in the shower, come on people you know that's where you think about what happened today and about life, I used this soap my friend Marriza have me for Christmas that smells like lavender. Now let me say this right now: I remember things mostly off smell. I can tell you how the day my brother was born smelled or how my room smells in the summer or how the shirt of my uncle smells like when I was 6. Its scent memory. Anyways once I smelled it, I instantly got a flash back of my last trip to Mexico. While I was in the shower. I swear guys I'm not this creepy but in my head I instantly got an image of my grandma's shower on the second floor of the house. And it smelled completely like lavender. Lavender to me smells like my grandma. And how much I miss her. After this I started thinking of all the little things that make her so special. Like the way she used to fret every time we arrived to her house and when we left she would cry a river, I'm not exaggerating she must have drank a bunch of water because she went on for hours, or when she would freak out because I would wear black, her least favorite color in the world, or just the way she used to cry with so much emotion that it would bring me to tears instantly. God knows I love my grandpa but when my grandma died it hit me hard. I have only cried twice at school: when my grandpa died and when my grandma died. The difference is that I cried the whole damn day after she died. My grandma had some quirky things too like how she only wore nightgowns or only had half her pinky or would give me her laundry to wash, after she embarrassingly asked if I would wash it for her, in a small little ball, or how he loved to hear my siblings and is sing. The last time she heard us she cried, which of course, made me cry. My grandma was one of the most strongest, fierce, and hardworking woman I have ever met. 

I just thought I'd write about these thoughts and my amazing grandma because sometimes you just gotta let it out. And I know if she was here she'd listen to me. 

I love you Mama Maria, 

-Natalia 

My Valentine's Day 2/14/14

My Valentine's Day was quite extraordinary. I woke up in the morning feeling great despite the fact that I stood up almost all night studying for my Physiology final that day. ON VALENTINE'S DAY. The slugger: the teacher wasn't even there to give us the test. WHAT THE HELL. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still sane. I better get an A. I didn't memorize all those muscles for nothin. Anyways, that day at school you were suppose to wear something red if you were "taken", black if you were "single" blue if it was "complicated" and green if you were "crushin". So naturally I wore red because I was going to anyways and because I have someone in my life who I care deeply about who makes me count as "taken". So I created my valentines this year making then as sexual and corny as I could. Unfortunately my mind doesn't function this way so thank jeebus for the internet. As soon as I handed them out Ben comes up behind me and gives me a giant bear with 10 balloons attached to the hand and a big chocolate Hershey's Kiss. I was forced to carry that all around school. OMG IT WAS DIFFICULT. I DIDN'T FIT THROUGH DOORS. But I survived. Barely. 

At lunch Alicia got surprised with her valentine gift from her boyfriend Jesus. See he graduated last year so he's in college now. And he came into school and surprised her. How cute! 

And that was my Valentine's Day. Nothing really romantic happened after except that my parents went to dinner. And my dad forgot his wallet so my mom had to pay for there dinner. No romantic at all. She even bought herself a rose x) Boo I need to teach my father in romance. 

I hope you guys had a great Valentine's Day

-Natt

Cali Weather : February 16, 2014

So I'm doing this type of outfit type of blog posts because California weather is basically whack. Seriously it's suppose to be winter yet the sun is shining and the shorts are coming out of the closet. 80 degree weather? I think yes. So since the weather is continuing, I will continue to accept it with open hands until it rains and I completely freeze my butt off. 

Today, was as yesterday, very nice weather. Sun was shinning, wind was blowing, the tanks came out. 

California Weather: Los Angeles: 81 degrees

• Disney Lion King Simba Tank Crop Shirt - Fallas Payedes- $5
• Y & F Stretech Blue Jean Shorts - Swap Meet - $6
• Bleach Zanpakuto Necklace - Anime Booth at the LA County Fair- $10
• White Rose Earrings - Booth - in a set of 11 - $5
• Black Bongo Slip on Shoes - Kmart - $10

I should probably say now that I by most of my knickknacks in little booths and clothes (mostly jeans and shorts) at the swap meet. For me that is my thrift shop. Cheap clothes = Happy Natalie. I'm working on buying more clothes in varies different styles but that requires money and I'm kinda out of a job. Boo. So I'm working on finding cheap places with neat clothes to buy. Hopefully I keep this up, Bring it on Cali!

-Natt

 

♥ Cute Things For Valentine's Day ♥

Valentine's Day is coming up and yes, I know its basically national single's day. BUT! If your like me and have that special someone in your life, I talk to them now. I'm calling on all those lucky guys who have their lucky lady, their apple to their eye, their smile to their day, their sun to their shine....and ultimately have nothing to give them for Valentin'e Day. Yes boys, we know your out there clueless as ever and having slight panic attacks because you have nothing planned. Well your in lucky! I'm here to help y'all.

There are three levels of gifts you can give your girl: Your Basic TV Cheshe Valentine, The Creative Know Your Girl Valentine, and the Personal Whole Other Level Valentine. Now I'm stating this right now: all girls are different! Certain gifts will work for certain girls! BUT <---- a big but, you MUST get her something, even if she tells you she doesn't wasn't anything. She's lying. No one likes getting nothing on the international day of love. No one. *cold stare* So if you already knew that props to you. If not: learn, you'll get brownie points I bet you. Now that were done with all the basic threatening and saving girls hearts, lets explain the levels.

The Basic TV Cheshe Valentine:
Now this is your basic Valentine gifts, the kind of things you see on Glee and The Vampire Diaries: flowers, a box of chocolates, balloons, a cute stuffed animal. Now this plus a nice dinner out or a date to the movies would work to complete this night of romance with your lady. Now this is kinda unoriginal but thrust me some girls love this! They want that perfect TV date and night out that they dream about. Remember: the cheesiest things are the best. If they didn't work then why do pick up lines work?

The Creative Know Your Girl:
This level of Valentine gifts is where you get your girl something she wouldn't get herself, a little something she would absolutely love. This can range from a new product of make up she's wanted to buy or a favorite little anime figurine from her favorite show. Now, yes I know somethings may be expensive soooo instead of buying her something, make her something. This leads on to our next and last level.

Personal Whole Other Level Valentine:
These gifts are mostly handmade gifts that girls will eat up. Trust me boys, if you take the time to make her something- it will be fantastic. Things like this include jewelry boxes, photo albums, personalized items (notes, rings, bracelets), and such. One of my favorite Youtubers (yes I know I mention them a lot) Danny Duncan and Lindsey Bell or DLV for short, Danny made Lindsey, for Christmas last year, a Harry Potter Monopoly Set. Made it boys. By hand. All personalized pieces, wood board painted squares, the whole nine yards. Yeah, a lot of work (he got his brother to help him) but definitely won Christmas. Buying things to make an object is cheap if you shop at Walmart and places similar. Art supply is cheap there, says the loyal Walmart shopper. If you really want to see your lady's face light up, DO IT.. If you want to do a easier object, draw her something or buy her a locket and put a picture of both of you in it or a personalized bracelet for both of you. That is cute. That is fun. That will work. DO IT.

So there you have it guys! Some ideas that will possibly save you day and not completely ruin this Friday for ya. If you can do any of these and add a nice day out then you guys are golden. Make your girl feel extra special. You might get rewarded later!

-Natt ♥