Where is Christmas?

Hello Internet, its me, again. I haven't written here in a long while. College takes all my time away and work makes me to tired to function sometimes. (Literally sometimes I get stuck half way down to sitting down because I'm so sore) Since I tend to share my opinions here and my life experiences, generally during holidays because I'm usually in my room contemplating escape through my window to avoid my family or siting with my family awkwardly trying to avoid there sight and prying questions about my life, I have time to think. This time I thought about Christmas and everything that comes attached to it. 

For those who don't know, or I just haven't mentioned it on here, Christmas in my favorite holiday. Hands down it is my favorite holiday because, even though I don't particularly like my family, we at least have to be nice to each other for a day and pretend we care. It's actually really sweet honestly because I kinda do believe it. This year however I was proven drastically wrong. My family was nowhere to be found this Christmas, not a call or a mention. My grandpa is in Mexico enjoying himself in his hometown and contemplating marrying this woman who he met online, yeah I know modern age dating huh, so of course he couldn't come home, That would be incredibly selfish no matter how much I love my grandpa. My other extended family though had no excuse. They at least call to mention last minute that "Oh hey! I meant to call you! Yeah were leaving to the middle of nowhere to be with the tumbleweeds and a thousand kids! Merry Christmas!" Rude rude family I've got. 

But besides the family missing, Christmas for me was still a bummer to me. This year it just felt empty. No spirit, not joy, just stress stress stress. My mom seemed more interested in buying and finishing all the presents for people than actually taking time to buy the presents and actually thinking of the people. Okay, let me explain here. I know maybe some of you can agree and understand this method of buying gifts but for me it is completely different. When I buy gifts I think of the person I'm buying it for. I buy the present specifically for them knowing that they'll enjoy it. It makes me extremely happy when they actually do enjoy it because that means someone this Christmas actually got something they liked for Christmas not just stinky socks or something they'll never actually use from a deranged family member. I don't really care about receiving presents honestly. I prefer giving presents instead because this happiness the person gets while opening the present is enough gift for me. Nothing material could ever give me that feeling of accomplishment. That is why this Christmas kinda sucked for me. My siblings were not grateful for the presents they received and didn't really deserve them either. Its sad how spoiled they are and un-thankful. I didn't receive any presents from my parents but I'm not complaining. 

This Christmas could have been better but I believe things happen for a reason. Maybe this Christmas showed me the life I could have in the future or taught me exactly what to avoid. Either way this was a learning experience that thought me more about my family, myself, and the character of people. So for those reading this today, Merry Christmas. Be thankful for what you have, your family, and what you recieve. It's important to keep the spirit alive or else in a few years Christmas is going to be taken over the department stores and solely about presents. 

Sincerely, 

Natalie

Mysterious Mondays: 9/15/14

Good hello guys. I have come today to, as it's become a habit lately, to geek out. When my mother convinced my father to pay Netflix she didn't know what she was creating. Now my siblings and I live with our eyes glued on the TV. My mom has seriously just started to realize that when I become interested in something I become obsessed. *cough* anime, book series, Tumblr, TV shows, movies, anything illuminated by the sun *cough* This time it's a fairly old show that broadcast in 2005. 

I have been completely hooked on Supernatural. 

Supernatural aired September 13, 2005 on The WB, so I'm literally 10 years late on realizing how amazing this show is. The show is basically about two brothers, Sam and Dean Winchester, who hunt demons, monsters, ghosts, and any other supernatural beings in the world. (duh) I had originally heard about this show when it actually aired but I was 9 then so I had better things to do like practice my flute and go make myself look like a potato while playing house in my back yard. 

I always had an interest in the show as I got older but I never willed myself to watch it. Like I said, I had better things to do. Now however, the first summer where I literally had almost nothing to do, I had enough time and boredom to watch. Best decision ever. 

I'm only on Season 3 so it's been really difficult not to go on Tumblr and Google to look up pictures because there are spoilers EVERYWHERE. Especially now that Season 9 is coming out. Here I am on Season 3. I'm actually pretty excited that I need 6 more seasons because that means I'm not going to be left heartbroken mid season. 

I really enjoy this show because how how much of a bond Sam and Dean have. Both brothers are willing to trade in anything, including their soul, and die for one another because that is how much they love each other. I really like this factor of the show because the brothers are faced daily with evil and always have that chance of death hanging over their head. I mean yeah it's a life of adventure but at what risk? The boys that this bond because of their unnatural upbringing. I mean, if your mother was killed by a demon and you father had dedicated his life to hunting the demon who killed his wife, you'd probably bond to the only other person who's going through the same thing too. 

Another aspect that I really enjoy about the show is that all the demons and monsters they face are actually true in some culture or folklore. The Brothers Grimm stories, Genies, Werewolves, Vampires, Ghosts, Spirits, you name it. It's really interesting how the show brings light and represents these monsters. I mean for example, lets take the very hated and misjudged Twilight. Vampires in Twilight are sparkly, super fast and strong. Vampires in Supernatural usually are party animals that drink liquor and kidnap people, for you know, lunch. Werewolves in Twilight change when they get angry or vampires are around. Werewolves in Supernatural change when it's the full moon and go insane. Different representation, same lore. 

I will now continue to geek out until I finish Supernatural. Because I mean, I don't start school next week or anything. Psssh no. Thank you for reading and I hope you have a nice day. 

-Natalie xx