I'm Aliiiiiive

Hello to all. Yeah I'm back finally. I haven't blogged a lot because I've been trying to get the feel of my new life and schedule. Between college, work, homework, mariachi, and helping the band because the director is clueless, its been a hassle. But noe I'm back, more relaxed, less jumpy and ready to write. I've had so many ideas for a blog post but no time to write it. Its been hard to find time for everything. For example: I've had Percy Jackson's last series book on my desk for 2 WEEKS AND HAVEN'T TOUCHED IT BECAUSE OF HOMEWORK. Jeez the struggle is real. I know if I read the book I won't want to do anything else until I finish it tears and all. I'm kinda.scared honestly too. The fangirl in me will cry too much i know it. Funny thing thay books make me cry not movies. Movies aren't as connecting as books I suppose.

You are beautiful. I saw this little message on my second week ofcollege and it kinda made my day. If you were having a shitty day or nervous of a presentation, a little something like that could defenatly make someone smile. Since i found this in the girls bathroom it could also make a person change their mind. 5 out of 15 of adult woman have symptoms of Bulimia. You never know if one of those 5 may walk into that stall.

Today my history teacher, which is off his rocker completely, congratulated me in being one of the two girls who got A's on his quiz. Honestly his class is easier than my high school AP US History. Ms. Quezada definitely kicked our asses in that class presuring us and preparing us for college. I think she succeed.

Taking the bus kinda sucks and kinda is cool. It sucks because i have to pay but rules because I only pay for what one tank of gas would cost me. So I mean I'll probably do a whole other post on the bus and it's many inhabitants. I need my licence already.

So that is me for now. Oh! I got a new phone that is connected to a network and everything and it is AMAZING. I love it so much. It makes life so much easier. Like blogging muaha. Anyways, I hope you all have a great day and complement someone today. Trust me, it will make their day.
¤ Natalie

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Spring Break and New Blog

Whats up guys! I know its been a very long time since I've written ( bad Natalie). Hey! Life is difficult for a high school senior. Final tests, college acceptances, money, begging for prom, band practice, friends, just everything. I'm trying to enjoy this though because I literally have less than two months left in my high school career. TWO MONTHS. Holy crap. I just a bit scared for what the change is going to bring. Hopefully my drivers licence and a bit more freedom.

News Update! Recently I've written another blog which is the place where I write about my thoughts and my opinions on ideas that randomly may pop into my head where this blog is to write down all of my activities and events in my life. My other blog is called Natalie's Neverland. I will most likely write on both blogs and continue to graph my life at one step at a time. 

Next on the news update: Spring Break! I am so excited to finally be on spring break. I usually can not tell when I am stressed but after whatever is stressing me is gone, I feel so relieved. That is how I feel. I have to write a 11 page essay with three of my friends for a class that shouldn't be giving us homework in the first place and my goodness it is kicking my butt. Then I have to pay all my college fees and ask for permission for prom and all that money and gosh damn it I need a job. I've also been reliving a bit of my obsession with Twilight lately. No I am not a to die Twihard or nothing but I do love the book not because the particularly because the story line but because the those books were part of my growing up and make me relive those moments. Without a doubt though, I do very much love Jacob Black, the fictional character, not the actor. Though the actor is pretty nice to look, I prefer the fictional character much more. 

So yeah guys. That's my life as of today, April 18th. If it wouldn't be much trouble go check out my other blog and see if it fits your fancy. 

-Natt

New Year Resolutions

Yet another yeah has past and another year of our lives done. Today is the last day of 2013 and yet I don't feel like I've accomplished much. Honest to Jebus, I don't think much of myself and often forget memorable things which lead me to write this blog in the first place. Now I know it seems super corny to write New Year resolutions but you know, here I am. Writing them. Because now that it will be on the internet, I have to do them. 

Buuuut first! Last years resolutions that I wrote. Lets see if I completed them.

New Year Resolutions for 2013

1. Be More Open
2. Express Yourself
3. Do More Wild and Crazy Shenanigans
4. Have an Adventure
5. Live Life Like There's No Tomorrow
6. Speak Your Mind, Have A Voice and Don't Be Afraid To Show It
7. Stop Being Antisocial
8. Get Closer To My Friends and Become Like The Golden Trio
9. Grow Up and Look At Reality, No More Games Bitch
10. Have Fun, Enjoy Every Minute Of Every Day and Don't Waste Time

Ummm yeah I basically said in all of these grow up and be crazy. Well that kind of happened in a way. This year, as I've just thought of it, I did achieve a few things like being the tinniest Marching Parade Band competing in Southern California and actually making a name for ourselves and taking marching sweepstakes at Arcadia. That's something right. Yeah whoo team work. Sigh. I've actually completed most of the 2013 new year resolutions like expressing myself, as this blog, and stop being antisocial. Yay me. 

New Year Resolutions for 2014

1. Don't Live with "What if's"
2. Don't Put Yourself Down All The Time
3. Don't Hurt Myself All The Time
4. Speak Up! Your Not That Dumb. People Like Copying Your Papers For A Reason Dummy
5. Achieve Self Goals: Blog More, Make Youtube Videos, Make Thisn Last year Of High School Last
6. Network. Make More Friends. "To Earn Some You Must Give Some"
7. Stop Crying So Much You Baby
8. Don't Take Things Up The Ass. Seriously
9. Bond With Your Annoying Family. There Not That Bad.
10. Don't Be Afraid Of Everything. Take Life With A Tackle.

Those are my New Year Resolutions. Kinda corny but it will do. Hopefully I accomplish my goals and not flack out like when people say "I'm gonna lose wait next year" and then a week after January first the gym is completely empty. I would like to lose wait though. Zumba every week for me. Its not actually very hard work and I like dancing AND got results last time 

sooooo I'll take it. I'm a dancer at heart. In all real seriousness I hope to discover more of myself and succeed in college like I know I can. I want to make friends that will last a life time and not just flake out on me and forget who I even was. And lastly I want to just live life. There are so many obsticals every day just flying at me and I'd just like to enjoy my life. My family has been in a huge fight within themselves and personally I think is BS. I don't even regard them as family anymore. People I know is more like it. They might say "Oh well i helped you in this instance" or "What are you talking about I did invite you" or :"You pay it I have no money" well I'm sick and tired of it. Fuck them and move on. My dad shouldn't put up with crap like this but oh well. Shows who's the strong one in the family of nine. Ignoring my little anger tantrum, New Years is about new beginnings and fresh starts. Hopefully all goes well. 

Happy New Years!

I made this Flipgram thingy that apparently everyone is doing so enjoy!

Bus Thoughts

It so particular how society works. How high schools society works. Today I am attending a field trip with my library science class, which consists of me and about 2-3 more girls, and an Art 1 class to the MOCA museum in Los Angeles and the public library. Now of course I may exaggerate and seem completely full of myself, but being in high level classes all my life, I don't normally associate with the type of people in these classes. So I find them very annoying and almost intolerable to bare but here I am. I wonder why I allowed myself to come to such a experience but then I remember: I need to try new things and be in new environments. Currently I am surrounded by people I do not know at all. Not one of my friends or even people that I recognize. And this frightens me. A lot. But I need to learn how to deal with situations like this so why not start now? College is going to be a similar experience so might as well get used to it. I just hope my anxiety doesn't kick in. That would be awful.

I feel like a total outsider because technically in there eyes I am. I don't fit into there society. I know this may sound like a ton of bogus but it's true. Me, being a band geek and in none of there classes, makes me an outsider to them as well as me to them. There is a reason why band geeks stick together. All my friends are mostly people in band, with the exception of Luis and such. High school is lovely don't you think? Full of social classes and dirty looks. Haha I just realize I have a good friend who's a cheerleader. Ironic huh. Kinda reminds me of life don't ya think? I realize that I probably sound really pessimistic right now but isn't that what growing up is? Recognizing that the world isn't all safe and perfect as what it looked like as a child. So for those, and if anyone actually reads this, here are the experience of not only an ordinary girl but an outsider too. I suppose it has it's benefits but also it's detriments as well. I know this is totally unrelated but as I write this on the bus heading to the museum (or library I'm not quite sure st this point) there is this stupid girl singing at the top of her lungs so out of tune that I want to scratch her throat out. Maybe it's just the band instincts. Or maybe just because I want to. Or both. Yeah probably both. So time to plug in the ear buds and ignore the world. Music is life. Music is love. Music is everything. 

LA is so beautiful. People see it as a city full of crime and ugly buildings but I see it as opportunity and beauty. Those old cracked buildings? They were once beautiful and now hold history. Those people? Just trying to make a living. I mean to those who haven't walked down the streets of LA, it is an experience you need to try. I gaze up at the buildings. I think of how many people are in the building with so many different lives. I try to imagine how there life would be. If that man has daughters or sons. Where her went to high school. What's his favorite holiday? Is her mother still alive? It's an endless list of possibilities. (I wonder where my dad is. He works in LA as a truck driver so I wonder if I'll see him) this bus ride is taking forever. And the girl is still singing. Crap. 

Library side entrance

So after entering the library, which was filled with homeless people, and after I got a speech from a hobo stating that his name was Gregory from Alaska and he is going to take office after Obama in 2017 where he will eliminate money because that is violating our got given right of equality stated in the constitution, we took a tour where the guide took us to a specific place where teens and only teens can go, so men like Gregory can not enter, and we can basically do whatever we'd like. Free wifi and unlimited supplies of books. Sweet. After that we walked to the MOCA museum and got into groups where two tour guides took us to talk about the art that was displayed. One of my guides was named Jorge and spoke with a Mexican accent. He was completely adorable! He had so many ideas and inspirations that he wanted to share. I had a very good experience at the museum and would gladly go back to visit. The art is amazing and abstract. 

Yeah that'me me on the side. Woops

I completely love this

So over all I had a good time. At first it was completely horrible but being alone and in a new environment wasn't that bad as i thought. But still nerve raking. I discovered new perspective of thinking and observed more of what was around me. So I kind of learned street skills, in the most basic explanation I can give. Hooray for new experiences. Hopefully then next isn't so unplesent at first.
-Natalie ☾

New song that has been on my mind for a while :)