The Little Things About My Grandma

I've been thinking about my family a lot recently but the one person who always stays in my mind is my grandma. While in the shower, come on people you know that's where you think about what happened today and about life, I used this soap my friend Marriza have me for Christmas that smells like lavender. Now let me say this right now: I remember things mostly off smell. I can tell you how the day my brother was born smelled or how my room smells in the summer or how the shirt of my uncle smells like when I was 6. Its scent memory. Anyways once I smelled it, I instantly got a flash back of my last trip to Mexico. While I was in the shower. I swear guys I'm not this creepy but in my head I instantly got an image of my grandma's shower on the second floor of the house. And it smelled completely like lavender. Lavender to me smells like my grandma. And how much I miss her. After this I started thinking of all the little things that make her so special. Like the way she used to fret every time we arrived to her house and when we left she would cry a river, I'm not exaggerating she must have drank a bunch of water because she went on for hours, or when she would freak out because I would wear black, her least favorite color in the world, or just the way she used to cry with so much emotion that it would bring me to tears instantly. God knows I love my grandpa but when my grandma died it hit me hard. I have only cried twice at school: when my grandpa died and when my grandma died. The difference is that I cried the whole damn day after she died. My grandma had some quirky things too like how she only wore nightgowns or only had half her pinky or would give me her laundry to wash, after she embarrassingly asked if I would wash it for her, in a small little ball, or how he loved to hear my siblings and is sing. The last time she heard us she cried, which of course, made me cry. My grandma was one of the most strongest, fierce, and hardworking woman I have ever met. 

I just thought I'd write about these thoughts and my amazing grandma because sometimes you just gotta let it out. And I know if she was here she'd listen to me. 

I love you Mama Maria, 

-Natalia 

My Not So Great Weekend

So I'm not the type of person to rant on the internet so since I had a not so awesome weekend I'm deciding to look on the optimistic side of it and write about that. When life throws you curve balls, throw them back and hit the pitcher in the face with it.

This weekend I went to spend it with my sister's Nina and Nino in a small town Deleno. Now since this town isn't that famous nor very known by people here are some fun facts for you:

1. Deleno was founded on July 14, 1869 as a railroad town
2. It is one of the top 5 polluted towns in Southern California
3. It is in the mitts of grape fields and cow farms( aka the middle of no where)
4. The average temperature: 77.7 degrees
5. North Kern State Prison is located there which holds the worst prisoners in Southern California 

Let me enfensize that this town is in the middle of nowhere. Land and grapes and land and cows is all you see there. Plus there is a weird yuck smell to the air there. Its so dense that the water smells like it too. Whoop.
But my favorite part is driving throw Gorman Mountain. To get up to north California my family has to drive through this mountain which takes about an hour long. But through this mountain there is this lake called Pyramid Lake which is absolutely beautiful. I'd love to camp there and just spend a wonderful weekend there. I have this tradition that when I drive through Gorman I have to listen to this song called "Sunny Came Home." Listen to it. It is magic put on bread by unicorns and friendship.

As I stayed in the home of my sister's grandparents, I was basically bullied by her Nina. And this happens all the time but this time I just felt it a little worse. I think it's because I actually notice small details that make a big difference like how sentences are ended with a bit of attitude or how a look can say a thousand words. So that was already a downfall for me. I spent on the floor that night which was amazing for me because one thing that bugs me to the max is sleeping on unusual beds. I mean I'll sleep on people's bed whole I like and know have the same sleeping habits as me or smell really good but this was none of these situations. So the floor was the best option for me. But then the light went out in the whole city which was a downfall for me for I was talking to Ben which was the only  thing keeping me calm. Plan B was listening to classical music and sleeping. That worked.

The next day I ate Menudo which is in the short term, cow stomach. Ew. I have never liked with because of the sole fact that I can not chew it. Nope not eating that. After we got ready we drove almost an hour to Tulare Country where an outdoor mall was. I didn't mind the long drive but this time I did. Because my internal self got the better of me. I started thinking of all the twisted and messed up things my family has done and has happened along with the death of my grandparents and just everything that's been happening in my life. I got into a depressive state I haven't visited in a really long time. This emotional wave got the better of me and well I'm still recovering from it now. And this stated with the thought of "Wow were 30 minutes away from my cousin's house." Not my best moment. This state wasn't helped when I found at least 5 different guys staring at me like I was food. Here's the thing about me: I hate stares. Guys, girls, parents, anyone; I don't like attention. This is really weird because when I'm dancing that all goes away and I want it all but if I'm not on stage, you look I bite. Since Ben wasn't there nor my dad I had no bodyguard and was forced to hide in clothes racks and behind clothes. I am a chicken. Bock Bock.

When we headed "home" after, ashamedly eating Mc Donald's, I watched "Dance Academy" on Netflix because I don't like talking to peoples and I had wifi. Plus for me. After a couple of hours we headed home and I of course fell asleep like a baby for the whole 2 hour drive. As I got home my bed felt like feathers and my pillow like silk as I drifted off to Natalieland with all the pikachus and french fries in the world.

And that was my horrific weekend. Never again. Nope. I will boycott the crap out of my parents and basically chain myself to my bed until I am able to stay home. No bullying. No emotional flashes like in the dark past. No sleeping on the floor. No stinky water. Just home sweet home.

-Natt

My Valentine's Day 2/14/14

My Valentine's Day was quite extraordinary. I woke up in the morning feeling great despite the fact that I stood up almost all night studying for my Physiology final that day. ON VALENTINE'S DAY. The slugger: the teacher wasn't even there to give us the test. WHAT THE HELL. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still sane. I better get an A. I didn't memorize all those muscles for nothin. Anyways, that day at school you were suppose to wear something red if you were "taken", black if you were "single" blue if it was "complicated" and green if you were "crushin". So naturally I wore red because I was going to anyways and because I have someone in my life who I care deeply about who makes me count as "taken". So I created my valentines this year making then as sexual and corny as I could. Unfortunately my mind doesn't function this way so thank jeebus for the internet. As soon as I handed them out Ben comes up behind me and gives me a giant bear with 10 balloons attached to the hand and a big chocolate Hershey's Kiss. I was forced to carry that all around school. OMG IT WAS DIFFICULT. I DIDN'T FIT THROUGH DOORS. But I survived. Barely. 

At lunch Alicia got surprised with her valentine gift from her boyfriend Jesus. See he graduated last year so he's in college now. And he came into school and surprised her. How cute! 

And that was my Valentine's Day. Nothing really romantic happened after except that my parents went to dinner. And my dad forgot his wallet so my mom had to pay for there dinner. No romantic at all. She even bought herself a rose x) Boo I need to teach my father in romance. 

I hope you guys had a great Valentine's Day

-Natt

Cali Weather : February 16, 2014

So I'm doing this type of outfit type of blog posts because California weather is basically whack. Seriously it's suppose to be winter yet the sun is shining and the shorts are coming out of the closet. 80 degree weather? I think yes. So since the weather is continuing, I will continue to accept it with open hands until it rains and I completely freeze my butt off. 

Today, was as yesterday, very nice weather. Sun was shinning, wind was blowing, the tanks came out. 

California Weather: Los Angeles: 81 degrees

• Disney Lion King Simba Tank Crop Shirt - Fallas Payedes- $5
• Y & F Stretech Blue Jean Shorts - Swap Meet - $6
• Bleach Zanpakuto Necklace - Anime Booth at the LA County Fair- $10
• White Rose Earrings - Booth - in a set of 11 - $5
• Black Bongo Slip on Shoes - Kmart - $10

I should probably say now that I by most of my knickknacks in little booths and clothes (mostly jeans and shorts) at the swap meet. For me that is my thrift shop. Cheap clothes = Happy Natalie. I'm working on buying more clothes in varies different styles but that requires money and I'm kinda out of a job. Boo. So I'm working on finding cheap places with neat clothes to buy. Hopefully I keep this up, Bring it on Cali!

-Natt

 

♥ Cute Things For Valentine's Day ♥

Valentine's Day is coming up and yes, I know its basically national single's day. BUT! If your like me and have that special someone in your life, I talk to them now. I'm calling on all those lucky guys who have their lucky lady, their apple to their eye, their smile to their day, their sun to their shine....and ultimately have nothing to give them for Valentin'e Day. Yes boys, we know your out there clueless as ever and having slight panic attacks because you have nothing planned. Well your in lucky! I'm here to help y'all.

There are three levels of gifts you can give your girl: Your Basic TV Cheshe Valentine, The Creative Know Your Girl Valentine, and the Personal Whole Other Level Valentine. Now I'm stating this right now: all girls are different! Certain gifts will work for certain girls! BUT <---- a big but, you MUST get her something, even if she tells you she doesn't wasn't anything. She's lying. No one likes getting nothing on the international day of love. No one. *cold stare* So if you already knew that props to you. If not: learn, you'll get brownie points I bet you. Now that were done with all the basic threatening and saving girls hearts, lets explain the levels.

The Basic TV Cheshe Valentine:
Now this is your basic Valentine gifts, the kind of things you see on Glee and The Vampire Diaries: flowers, a box of chocolates, balloons, a cute stuffed animal. Now this plus a nice dinner out or a date to the movies would work to complete this night of romance with your lady. Now this is kinda unoriginal but thrust me some girls love this! They want that perfect TV date and night out that they dream about. Remember: the cheesiest things are the best. If they didn't work then why do pick up lines work?

The Creative Know Your Girl:
This level of Valentine gifts is where you get your girl something she wouldn't get herself, a little something she would absolutely love. This can range from a new product of make up she's wanted to buy or a favorite little anime figurine from her favorite show. Now, yes I know somethings may be expensive soooo instead of buying her something, make her something. This leads on to our next and last level.

Personal Whole Other Level Valentine:
These gifts are mostly handmade gifts that girls will eat up. Trust me boys, if you take the time to make her something- it will be fantastic. Things like this include jewelry boxes, photo albums, personalized items (notes, rings, bracelets), and such. One of my favorite Youtubers (yes I know I mention them a lot) Danny Duncan and Lindsey Bell or DLV for short, Danny made Lindsey, for Christmas last year, a Harry Potter Monopoly Set. Made it boys. By hand. All personalized pieces, wood board painted squares, the whole nine yards. Yeah, a lot of work (he got his brother to help him) but definitely won Christmas. Buying things to make an object is cheap if you shop at Walmart and places similar. Art supply is cheap there, says the loyal Walmart shopper. If you really want to see your lady's face light up, DO IT.. If you want to do a easier object, draw her something or buy her a locket and put a picture of both of you in it or a personalized bracelet for both of you. That is cute. That is fun. That will work. DO IT.

So there you have it guys! Some ideas that will possibly save you day and not completely ruin this Friday for ya. If you can do any of these and add a nice day out then you guys are golden. Make your girl feel extra special. You might get rewarded later!

-Natt ♥

Valentine Day Pick Up Lines!

♥  Hey girl. Feel my sweater. You know what hat's made out of? Boyfriend material.

♥  I though happiness started with an H. Why does mine start with U?

♥  You look so familiar...didn't we take a class together? I could have sworn we had Chemistry.

♥  Your hand looks heavy, let me hold it for you.

♥  I bought you 12 roses for Valentine's day. 11 are real-1 fake. I will love you until all of them die and wilt away.

♥  Can I borrow a kiss? I promise I'll give it back.

♥  Lets make like fabric softener and snuggle!

♥  Polar Bear! "What?" Just wanted to break the ice.

♥  Bond. James Bond.

♥  Oh, those are shoulder blades, I though they were wings.

♥  I only have three months to live

♥  What's that in your eye? It must be a twinkle.

♥  WOW~

♥  Your legs must be tired. You've been running throw my mind all night

It's going to be Valentine's Day!!! So apparently I'm the one one excited for this day. Single or not it never mattered to be. YOU GET TO EAT CHOCOLATE. That is a main plus for me since I've been working out and been watching what I eat. Anyways I've always had this perk of giving. I don't care what holiday it is but I  like making people happy and seeing them smile. Giving gifts for me a way to show people you love them and actually thought about them while buying and/or making them. I always bought and made my valentines so I am stoked to give them out. People shouldn't be so pessimistic. Love is love. It hurts as if a monkey was biting your butt but can also feel like the sweetest candy in the world.

 If anybody is interested to read an amazing love story, read "Dash and Lily's Book of Dares". It takes place during Christmas but about love never the less. Never read such a well written book with the right touch of sass and wits in the characters.

Anyways here's a video with some of my favorite YouTubers Destry Moore, Nathen Owens, and Blake Bliss. Hilarious:

Have a lovely day darlings,

-Natt ♥