Thoughts From The Soul

"I don't belong" I sit at a party I think to myself. I've always felt like this but more lately. Since I've been so stressed out ranging from my bf, college apps, and so much more this is the first time I just think to myself in peace. No Internet, no one talking to me, just me myself and I next to a fire. (I'm probably gonna smell like smoke afterwards) it feels nice. But I also feel like an outsider. I've noticed that when I quiet and just observe (I swear I'm not that creepy creeper looking at you when you cross the road or is behind you right now) I think more and learn more. War tactics basically. Observe-learn-plan-attack. I wish I could attack. I know I'm going to sound like some random fandom girl or what not but I really wished I live in Rick Rodian's world. If you people do not know who he is, well you don't know what your missing. He created the Percy Jackson Series and The Heroes of Olympus Series. Now this is where I feel I belong. I know stupid right. But how is it that I feel more connected to fictional character like Annabeth and Leo a than real live humans I interact with every day? I really really wish I was a Demigod. Now other girls dream about having that rich life and becoming a famous movie star or marring that perfect actor or tumblr guy and such but not me. I dream of fighting monsters and traveling on quests with the best of friends. I day dream so much not really healthy. *sigh* If only. If only I could escape this life that feels like its incomplete. It feels like I'm wearing a skin that doesn't belong to me sometimes. It's nice thy I can relate to the characters in the book. I can't help but to not fall in love with them. But that will be a topic for another time. Tooooo many fiction character I've loved. Oh jeez. So as the fire crackles and my shirt absorbed the smoke that is rising I will continue to think of the abnormal feeling in my chest that rises and think of the better times I would have in other life with demigods. 

I hope I don't singe my hair, 

-Natt

PS: My Perf DemiGod team with my humans that I communicate with at times

Me: sword fighter, quickness, reaction times, child of the dark -Hades

Luis: tactics, math smarts, agile sword fighter -Hades

Ben: The sweet talker, brute strength -Aphrodite 

Alicia: smarts, outspoken skills ( distractions!), tiny dimensions- Athena

Matt: smarts, mechanics, musical talents -Hesperus 

Halloween in November!

Yup. That's what I'm doin. Bringing freaken Halloween to November. I think they should meet. I think the'd get along. Yup. So yeah since I've been extreamly busy (But doesn't excuse not to blog!) I never posted about Halloween! How dare I! How scandalous! But forgetting all this drama yes i really have been extremely busy because of college applications WHICH I"M ALMOST DONE! I'm so relieved! They have been seriously kicking my butt. And by that I mean no sleep. At all. Now I wonder how my college life is going to be. Oh jeez. But back to the original subject! Halloween! 

So as some might know I dressed up like Wendy Darling from Peter Pan and Ben (my boyfriend but its really weird calling him that so I just call him Ben) dressed up as Peter Pan. My best friend Alicia ( yes her rain of terror is back) dressed as Tinker Bell. Yup that happened. 

These are some of my friends that I like to communicate very often with. In other words, my friends. I'm surprised I even have any honestly.

The big picture on the left is my friend Luis! Yes that is him. He finally let me take a picture of him which I am so happy about. I love pictures. In all seriousness many people judge him too quickly and i really don't know why. Were very alike and they don't judge me. Well I don't think they do. Oh shiiit. Anyways, this is one of my best friends Luis who loves Percy Jackson as much as I do. (which is a lot, a very unhealthy amount)

Next is Isaiah which is basically my brother or cousin as my mother calls him. I've known him since about second grade and been in his class all the way up to senior year. Like almost every class. I wish I was kidding. But I love him like a brother

Under that is Alicia which is my best friend. Period. Too much to say about her to write about I assure you.

Under that picture is Marriza. Now I meet her my freshman year but doesn't mean she isn't a good friend. Whenever I need her shes there to make me smile and laugh. Boyfriend probs? She got it.

And last is Liz. She is so hilarious I swear. But she is the most honest person and her laugh is so contagious. Liz, you make my mornings.

Later I went trick or treating with Alicia, Ben, Jesus (Alicia's bf) and Marcia. Lots ans lots of candy!

So that was my Halloween! In November! Yup. I promise to keep up on my blogging!
-Natt

My Dancing Life

SO lately I've been thinking about my dancing portion of my life. And I came to conclusion it was pretty great. Let me share a tale of a young girl who once was a rebellious little girl (haha nah)

So it all started when *mystical time star warp* 

Tada! Three year old me after my first concert. Now I promise I'm not as old as that picture presents I'm only seventeen! (This photo actually got washed with my dad's wallet so it went swimming! I cant swim *~*)  But yes this was my first concert in 1999. I actually remember what I was thinking in this photo and made that specific smile purposely because it felt funny to bite my lip. Yeah I was just discovering that. 

So I danced at my local community center for a couple of years and then moved to another dance group that was professional, the San Gabriel Mission Folkorico Dance Group. It was amazing dancing professionally because the girls there were one of a kind. When the teacher was picking on us they would turn around and cross their eyes and stick out there tongues at us to make us laugh. This was especially good for me because I was the shyest chick in the whole world. I was so timid I would cry if they yelled at me. SO it was kinda helpful. A lot. I still talk to them even today. I mean, I don't make many friends. I keep the ones I manage to make close. They've changed so much but also so similar. The world changes, it doesn't mean you have to change with it. Unfortunately that only lasted about three to four years because some problems occurred which lead to the end of the group.  

Later I joined a different group, The Mariachi Heritage Society Folkorico group. Long names huh. I have no idea why. Formality? I think not. Anyways here I met another group of amazing people, Julie, Andy, and Leandro, siblings. And there freaken awesome! They live on a ranch and have a gimungous dog and there amazing dancers. We've bonded so much and now hang out occasionally because why freaken not. I competed in a competition, which I didn't know existed. This portion of my life was very important because it tauught me how to bind with others and work as a team. I have a hard time trusting and working with other people. I remember the first time I had to dance with a boy. I nearly cried. I was so terrified because he was so scary. Especially because he CHOOSE me to be his partner. SO SCARY! I swear he looked like a creeper.  I will never forget his creepy face. 

Folkorico has shown me that not matter how flexible you are you can always be more, endurance is key, and learn how to breath! So many years dancing and I still love it. I even wrote my personal statement on it. Yup. 

What I've also learned isssssss........Monster Makeup! Yes that is what we apply every time we have a performance. So much makeup. Too much.It makes my face feel super heavy and by the end of the performance, it has literally melted off my face. I wish I was kidding. Some people actually LIKE to put on this type of make up. Well my hat tips to them to see how they manage to make it last all day. Magic!

Beside injuring my knees and not being able to dance for like two months, dancing is great! And I will probably keep dancing as long as I can. Old age will never stop me! Because dance is a passion from within not just a hobby. The music must surge through your body and give you power. That is the most amazing feeling ever; being one with music. It just seems like everything fits in perfectly. Life is out of the way and dance is the only reality. It gives me goosebumps thinking about it.

My goal? To reunite myself with dancing again.

 -Natalie ♥

A Snap Shot A Day 10/16

So this week, which was like really two weeks ago ha ha ha *sigh* damn college apps, was really eccentric. School, parades, House of Hades, Parties, and more. And I say I have no life geez.

L-R:

1. Waiting at a parking lot before the El Monte Children's Parade
2. My sister and i at a Zumba Halloween party. She's Cassie from Dragon Tales (Love that show! It was my costume prior to her wearing it)...
3. Me Dressed in my Halloween costume. I don't know what I am honestly.It's a costume inspired by a painter. 
4. My bf dressed in his Halloween costume that arrived in the mail that week. Peter Pan!!
5. HOUSE OF HADES!! I am super obsessed with the Percy Jackson series. I have already finished it and it was amazing!! Thinking of doing a blog post just about this...
6. South El Monte Mighty Eagle Marching Band at the El Monte Children's Parade. That first rank step though ♥
7. Me reading House of Hades because I know I was going to blog about it ha ha
8. My little sister wearing my old dress. How weird huh. Who wears it better?
9. My feets during Spanish 3 AP because I was cozy and that class was particularity boring that day
10. Ben and me teaching his children (band lower classmates trumpets) SO much work huh
11. After our Friday football game that we LOST! just kidding I don't really football much less because out team sucks.
12. Playing catch with a water bottle during lunch. I almost got hit in the face -_- whoop haha
13. My Asian and me. We both suffer during Physiology so much 0-0

And that was my week. Till next time, which might be a while....stupid college apps.... It better be worth it.

-Natalie ♥

You should go watch Zoellas's Video with Baby Glitter. Soo adorable!